i wonder, if i did get to make a decision back then, what would it be like now?

Anyway, because of the recent new show on channel 8, i have been asking people around me, given a choice, would they rather work in the 红事 or 白事?
Those that i asked, all of them replied 红事, because its a happy event, people they work with will be happy, it will be a memorable event blah blah blah...
Maybe years ago i would chose 红事, but now i would chose to work in 白事. Of course i like to work with happy people/event, but i think working in 白事 is like .. helping people..
Its like helping them walk the last journey, ensuring that everything goes well..
aiya.. i dunno how to explain la.. which would you chose?

Recently i dreamt of a random person. Ok la, not really random because i just went to his fb afew days before i dreamt of him, but i did expect him in my dream! I think dream is a really weird thing!
When i'm dreaming, i dunno that is a dream..
In that dream, i can run very fast! Which is so not true..
What was true in that dream was.. i'm forgetful. i forgot to take something, thats why i have to turn back to take, and i got to see him. When i saw him, my response was to hide and act blur! hahas! which is what i will most probably do in real life! but in the end he still saw me..

no wonder.. now i know the reason why..

its a scary feeling, when someone you always thought to be strong suddenly crumble..